if i haven't already told you...

here it is, in fast-forward: i had the opportunity to go away this summer with campus outreach on summer leadership project, which is a time when college students from different campuses in a designated region go to the beach to live, work, and learn about God. essentially. it isn't hard to describe, exactly, but it is hard to convey the essence. what i can tell you is, i learned vastly about God, myself, and about real, practical faith. i found vocabulary for things i previously could not describe, but could only feel. though there wasn't as much time for reflection as i might have liked (which truthfully would have been an inordinate amount for any reasonable person) the Lord still made clear the lessons he had for me.  the story of this summer certainly has much to offer as a testimony of His absolute greatness.
that said, the Lord really showed me the importance of finding a community that enables us to run after Him with everything we've got.  i know that He has given me the desire to pursue Him, and to meet that desire, He has given me a new community to grow into.  so, i am leaving home, and leaving Gordon - two communities that have blessed me (and continue to bless me) enormously, to walk this other path.
was that vague enough for you? realistically, what it means is i'm moving down to Georgia, where i will (1) finish college at a state school where i can (2) be involved with the ministry that campus outreach is already establishing there.  i am moving into a house with five girls i met this summer, who have so graciously accepted my coming and welcomed me into their home.  and after that...well, that's God's call.
there is no other way to describe this decision other than natural.  different from other choices or turning points in my life, i did not hear the voice telling me which actions to take.  rather, all of the pieces came together first in my mind, then in reality.  which left me in the position where i really needed to believe that this is something the Lord has for me - and friends, it has been a journey of its own, but by the grace of God i have come to believe in His purpose in this practical, everyday, reality thing.
so, there it is.  the only version i know how to tell - i am yet to relay this story with ease or eloquence.  i am choosing to believe that far too much of it was divinely orchestrated for it to completely make mortal sense.  but it doesn't have to.  i am totally okay with that.