i woke up this morning to wild thing telling me the latest plan...which is that we're leaving today, at threeish! which was surprising...and sad. i finally felt what i normally feel when something is about to change...the panicked search for the nonexistant plug i want to pull, to stop the whole operation and pretend the idea was never born, to keep living life just as it is. i love the idea of embracing change, i just struggle with the reality that comes with. after halway pulling myself together, i re-read Psalm 19...which i read yesterday, too, and found such affirmation in it. especially verses seven and eight, which say this:
"The law of the LORD is perfect,
reviving the soul.
The statutes of the LORD are trustworthy,
making wise the simple.
The precepts of the Lord are right,
giving joy to the heart."
it reads more like a proverb, really. but what it said to me is that if i believe that the way of the Lord is perfect...that He is trustworthy, that He is right...then i can also find restoration and joy in Him. and He will make sense of the things that don't. He will do for me what i cannot do for myself.
yesterday our car was not ready to leave town when we were...and even though it felt yucky to think that maybe we were out of line...or that we shouldn't have trusted that it was the right car...etc. there are a hundred possible ways to lament misfortune. but there is one all-encompassing, infinitely sweeter principle - which is to trust in the Lord. Praise God that He is giving me so many opportunities to expand my trust...i surely need it.
and so, we continue to pray. and to trust. and to love.
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