i have learned something very important. it has to do with this quote:
"Sweet but not saccharine, earnest but not grave..Archer Hairline is designed
to hit just the right notes of forthrightness, credibility, and charm."
i love this quote, but if i didn't know what the author was talking about, i would not have guessed a font. of all things. but that's my point: whoever wrote this worked very hard to choose the words he or she saw most fit to describe the object of description. in this case, the object is wholly undynamic..inactive, unpowerful, and..dead.
it's for the same reason i love jane austen's conversations - we all lament that none of us talk the way "they" did. the words they say to eachother are so formulated - truthfully, it's hard to imagine real people talking about nothing in particular using their best vocabulary. good old jane. i wonder if she knew what she was doing..i bet she did - to be able to hit an honest behavior directly on target the way she does produces some kind of glow. it has a similar feeling to getting a great picture. you know? how it feels when you know you have embedded an image in the memory card SO precious and perfect that it almost makes you afraid to touch the camera, for fear that you might some how accidentally erase it forever. and a picture, comparatively, isn't even that important.
comparatively. compared to the wholly dynamic..active..powerful..living..work of God. how am i, who cannot even come up with an example of something i can't describe, supposed to put to words the acts of a God who is all these things?
it's for the same reason that i love oswald chambers. because on december fifteenth, he writes a thought entitled "approved unto God". rachel just read it to me. and it of course, even though it isn't december fifteenth, (because that doesn't really matter now) he blows us away. it was hearing a piece of his marvelous anthology that drew out the realization that was lurking in my subconscience. the sermon is based on 2 Timothy 2:15, which says this:
"Do your best to present yourself to God as one approved, a workman who does not
need to be ashamed and who correctly handles the word of truth."
i don't think i would have interpreted this bit of scripture the way he does, and maybe i wouldn't have even gotten from his thoughts what i did if i had not heard it from my friend. here is what he says:
"Struggle to re-express some truth of God to yourself, and God will use that expression to
someone else...Go through the winepress of God where the grapes are crushed. You
must struggle to get expression experimentally..."
it is annoying to have to leave out anything but the whole thought. but this is more or less the concept i am - ironically - struggling to put on the table. i am well acquainted with "truth that has been dumbly struggling in [me] for utterance." i think many of us are. why should we let the truth struggle, when we can fight to set it free? oswald is a reminding us that it is not only a possibility, but a responsibility to work hard enough to say the things that are true...it is most important that we take hold of our right to 'freeing of speech', if you will. and while i am here, this will be my striving point. yes. i am striving to follow the Lord. and as i am, i will strive to find the words that may only brush their feathers against justice to what things He has done. oh, great things He has done.
as the old hymn says: oh tell of His might, oh sing of His grace...it's time now to stop letting the grace go by, uncelebrated in its miserable lack of being retold. time to stop letting the photograph get away, leaving the hollo, falling feeling that ensues. because that feeling may only last a little while, but that's comparatively..remember? i want to take pictures of the grace. word pictures. i want to store up the comparatively more invaluable pictures of grace, and sing of them loudly.
i think, i have decided, to be an english major. if for no other reason, there will be plentiful opportunity to be reminded to take pictures of His grace.
1 comment:
I'm not sure if it's sad or wonderful to have your first blog comment come from your paternal unit. I will say I am your biggest fan. I can't imagine a male man enough to rival that claim. But I do know that claim is like weak rhetoric compared to the unrelenting love of Jesus for you. I am so happy you are discovering that love. Thanks for capturing these pictures in words. I am blessed by them. How much more then the true lover of your soul. I see this comment is moderated. Feel free to keep this one to yourself.
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